31 March 2014

Confession

I know what I want. I know what I need to do to get it. Problem is, I don't want to do it.

The struggle is real
All I want to do is eat garbage food. I don't want to make green smoothies. I don't want to go for a run or wake up and do yoga.
I'm tired. I'm stressed out. I'm feeling shitty. Is any of this productive? No. Is any of it good for me? No. Is any of it helping me reach my goals? NO! But this is how I feel. And I'm not going to sugar-coat it.
Someone give me a swift kick in the ass and knock me out of this funk.
Shit, I guess the someone to do that is me....


23 March 2014

Six Days (Closer) to a New Me

Six days. It's not impressive, it's not laudable, but I did it. A six day modified juice cleanse. I will admit I'm proud of myself.
Romaine, chard, spinach, cuke, apple, celery,
green grapes, lime and mint
My body needed a recharge. I've been damaging it for a while, and after a week of really taking my emotions out on myself, I hit bottom. And of course I turned to the one person who can always bail me out me, Courtney Pool. (Follow her on Twitter, or like her on Facebook she's amazing.) Courtney has helped me heal my relationship with food and I spoke with her about doing a modified juice cleanse.
I wanted to do a full-on, seven day cleanse but life just isn't allowing me the time to do that right now. So instead of embracing my typical all-or-nothing attitude, I adopted the something is better than nothing mindset. And a six day modified cleanse it was.
Yum in a bottle
Modified meant that I ate fresh produce in addition to juice. I probably averaged three to four quarts of juice a day (see below for recipes) with the same dinner every night (a raw gazpacho-type soup). I limited my produce to one to two pieces of fruit a day with some raw veggies in addition to my soup. Breakfast most days was an Evolution Fresh smoothie; I made my own smoothies in the beginning but then Father Time decided to challenge me and I opted for quick and easy. I tried to ensure that I was cleansing my body while keeping my sanity during this exceedingly busy time. I kept most of my juices green, since I was eating fruit and getting a lot of natural sugar that way.
Dinner: tomatoes, cukes, peppers, zucchini, garlic,
lemon and one avocado (made 6 days worth)
I was away on Thursday night and Friday and I wanted to max out my experience, so I splurged and bought six juices from Urban Remedy (whose customer service is kick-ass, by the way). When my kitchen sink decided to be a bitch and completely clog on Monday night, I didn't allow that to derail me. I went to my co-op and loaded up on Evolution Fresh juices, which were on sale. I didn't even cave when I went out for a social event on Thursday night with amazing food and a cocktail list to die for. I was not going to let anything get in the way of my attempts to heal my body and emotions.
These guys were life-savers.
Some of you are probably wondering about weight loss. Let me start by saying losing weight was not my goal here. I had deeper issues I was trying to resolve and that's where this came from. But I know it is often what brings people to juice cleansing. To be honest, it's hard to be accurate here, because my starting weight was greatly affected by some serious bingeing prior to the cleanse. That being said, all in all, I dropped 10 pounds. I'm still five pounds more than I was before I left for France mid-February. (And don't start with me about how numbers on the scale don't matter. I know that. But I weigh myself every day and probably will forever, so you can save your breath.) But I am more in tune with my body and its needs and know that with continued yoga and some increased running and weight training I will get what I want. I don't obsess over my weight like I used to, but it still impacts me. I'm happy happier with how I look and it's taking me a long time to learn to love myself. I'm not there yet, but I'm farther than I was 18 months ago. And this hiccup is part of the learning process. I know now that I can heal after being emotionally and physically damaging to myself. Bringing things down to a state of pureness is grounding, and this modified juice cleanse really helped eliminate all of the mental shit that was bogging me down. I'm ready to jump into life again as I prepare to start the next chapter. But I can promise you, the next chapter will include a lot of juice, including this.
Two grapefruit, four juice oranges and
a teaspoon of spirulina. Too yummy.
And in case you were wondering,
I ended my cleanse on Saturday with a green smoothie (typical smoothie à la Allison) and a Buddha Bowl with my dad from a local food distributor (quinoa, millet, black beans, chick peas, tofu, sweet potato, peas, spinach, cilantro, green onions in a sesame sauce).
Forgot to snap a photo of my lunch!
Recipes
Here are some of the juices I made. I will say that I added greens (kale, spinach, chard or baby lettuce) to every single juice, even if it didn't call for it. That allowed me to reduce other produce while increasing the amount of greens I was getting. (Not at all scientific, but it made sense in my head!)
Allison's standard: spinach, romaine, baby lettuce, apple, carrot, cucumber, celery and either: lemon and parsley, or lime and mint
Beet Express (from The Juice Lady's Big Book of Juices and Green Smoothies): carrot, kale, beets, ginger, garlic, lemon
Sweet potato (from Natural Thrifty): sweet potato, carrot, pineapple, ginger
Body Cleanser (from Juicing for Life): cucumber, beet, apple, carrot
Citrus spirulina (à la Courtney Pool): grapefruit, orange, spirulina powder (I did switch this up one day and made it with some romaine and honeydew to cut down on the citrus acid, and it was just as good!)
Pineapple spinach mint (self-explanatory), from Juicing for Life

NB-I love both of the books I mentioned, but I prefer The Juice Lady. Juicing for Life is organized by disorder (asthma, periodontal disease, memory loss), which is very cool if you have something you're trying to heal. However, when I have beets and sweet potatoes and want to know what goes well with them, this book does not have the best system to find that.

For more reading, check out my Smoothies and juices and yum, oh my! Pinterest board.