07 December 2014

Pre Juice Cleanse Reflections


Tomorrow starts my very first full seven-day juice cleanse. 


kale, spinach, beets, apple, cucumber, celery, carrot, lemon and ginger
My juice cleanses in the past have either been shorter, like three days, or modified with some solid fruits and vegetables and smoothies. (I wrote about that experience in this post.) But right now, I'm ready (I think) to take on a bigger challenge . I don't really want to do it, but I recognize the importance of it. I need to refocus, recharge, reassess my life. I need to lose a little weight, even though that's only partially what this is all about. While I certainly feel better about myself now than I did, say, three months ago, I still need to find a new perspective. I feel like this juice cleanse is probably the best way for me to do that, even though I know it's going to be hard. I think honestly the biggest thing that's giving this a slightly negative cloud is just the time commitment. I know I've chosen a good week in terms of fewer external commitments on my calendar; nonetheless, spending so much time in the kitchen chopping vegetables is, in its own way, exhausting. I do think the fact that I have mapped out my juices for the week will be helpful. There won't be any standing in the kitchen, wishing I had such and such ingredient, because I really have planned every single juice for every single day. I would have loved to buy some Urban Remedy juices to make the endeavor a little bit easier and less stressful, as they are good, pure, and simple juices, but let's be realistic: I just don't have the money right now. Maybe this negative approach to this experience before I've even started is not the healthiest, but I need to be realistic and honest about my feelings. That's what this is all about, right?


kale, spinach, beets, apple, cucumber, celery, carrot, lemon and ginger
I need some clarity, and I feel like simplifying certain aspects of my life, like food, will help with that. I think it will help me get in touch with some deeper emotions that I might be feeling. Reconnecting with myself in a different way will shift my perspective and allow me to see things that might not be readily apparent at this juncture. Even though this is not going to be a simple process, it's going to take a lot of time and work, I have to recognize that in the end it's going to be worth it. I know that when I've done shorter cleanses in the past, it has had a positive effect on many levels: emotionally, physically and mentally. I just need to keep that final goal in mind, without losing sight of what's going to happen on the journey.
So we'll see where this goes. I don't know what to expect, which I think is probably a good thing. If I had certain expectations or anticipated outcomes, I think that would change the whole experience. I just have to gear myself up to recognize that I don't know exactly what this cleanse is going to bring, but have faith in the process and know that whatever happens, I will come out a different person in the end. And that's not necessarily a bad thing.



Funny, I typed this on a new journaling app I got.  I just discovered that on the top of the page, there's a little quote. Today's quote is "True life is lived when tiny changes occur," Lev Tolstoy. Maybe if some tiny, or big, changes occur over the next week, I will find a truer life.

31 March 2014

Confession

I know what I want. I know what I need to do to get it. Problem is, I don't want to do it.

The struggle is real
All I want to do is eat garbage food. I don't want to make green smoothies. I don't want to go for a run or wake up and do yoga.
I'm tired. I'm stressed out. I'm feeling shitty. Is any of this productive? No. Is any of it good for me? No. Is any of it helping me reach my goals? NO! But this is how I feel. And I'm not going to sugar-coat it.
Someone give me a swift kick in the ass and knock me out of this funk.
Shit, I guess the someone to do that is me....