17 August 2013
Vacation? No, thanks...
Someone give me a schedule. Please.
I think I'm the only person on the planet who doesn't like vacation. And probably the only teacher who has a hard time with summer. I mean, not working? Giving no fucks? Sounds great to me. Too bad I suck at it.
I go back to school in a week, and I can't wait. Summer days with no one dictating my every move? Nope, sorry, can't do it. I fall apart and am the antithesis of productivity. In fact, I think I suck the productivity out of others. It's like I require 17 venti soy chai mistos and perhaps a snake or two under the covers to vacate the bed. I. Just. Can't. Do. It.
I need structure. You may say, "Well, create your own, braniac!" But for some reason, it's impossible. I need someone to give me a mandate. Tell me what to do, where to be and when. For a Leo, who's supposed to be so damned independent, I sure do rely on other people. It's like I can't even think for myself! (I blame it on my underachieving to-do list. That little creep didn't do very much of itself this summer. I guess I can't blame it, though; it was pretty lousy.)
I have spent a lot time in my classroom over the past two weeks. How strange to think that I am voluntarily at my job when I don't have to be. But I think once school starts up again, I'll be in a better frame of mind. Just give me a routine, and I'll be fine. (Funny, everyone always talks about how they lose weight over the summer. I have no idea what that's like. I don't exercise enough, I eat and drink too much and I just generally fall in to disrepair. I must admit, however, that I have actually lost a couple of pounds since June. Imagine what can happen when I get a schedule and actually start to pay attention to myself! And here I turn to the amazing Chalene Johnson's 30 Day Challenge to help me kick September's ass.)
Now, if you'll please excuse me, I need to go obsess over the fact that I have one week of vacation left before I start panicking about the next vacation I'm going to dread.