17 August 2013

Vacation? No, thanks...

Someone give me a schedule.  Please.
I think I'm the only person on the planet who doesn't like vacation.  And probably the only teacher who has a hard time with summer.  I mean, not working?  Giving no fucks?  Sounds great to me.  Too bad I suck at it.
I go back to school in a week, and I can't wait.  Summer days with no one dictating my every move?  Nope, sorry, can't do it.  I fall apart and am the antithesis of productivity.  In fact, I think I suck the productivity out of others.  It's like I require 17 venti soy chai mistos and perhaps a snake or two under the covers to vacate the bed.  I. Just. Can't. Do. It.
I need structure.  You may say, "Well, create your own, braniac!"  But for some reason, it's impossible.  I need someone to give me a mandate.  Tell me what to do, where to be and when.  For a Leo, who's supposed to be so damned independent, I sure do rely on other people.  It's like I can't even think for myself!  (I blame it on my underachieving to-do list.  That little creep didn't do very much of itself this summer.  I guess I can't blame it, though; it was pretty lousy.)
I have spent a lot time in my classroom over the past two weeks.  How strange to think that I am voluntarily at my job when I don't have to be.  But I think once school starts up again, I'll be in a better frame of mind.  Just give me a routine, and I'll be fine.  (Funny, everyone always talks about how they lose weight over the summer.  I have no idea what that's like.  I don't exercise enough, I eat and drink too much and I just generally fall in to disrepair.  I must admit, however, that I have actually lost a couple of pounds since June.  Imagine what can happen when I get a schedule and actually start to pay attention to myself!  And here I turn to the amazing Chalene Johnson's 30 Day Challenge to help me kick September's ass.)
Now, if you'll please excuse me, I need to go obsess over the fact that I have one week of vacation left before I start panicking about the next vacation I'm going to dread.

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