I'm not really feeling the self-doubt piece today, but I'm working pretty damn hard to put on a hell of a show. This weekend I'm teaching a very different class, swapping my needy 10 year olds for needy 40 year olds. Two days, showing foreign language teachers what you can do with an iPad in the classroom.
I have always considered myself tech-savvy, but never an expert. But man, the appreciation these teachers have for the knowledge I'm sharing with them is palpable. I won't deny it, it's a hell of an ego boost! It's so empowering to have people acknowledge that you are sharing valuable information that they will use. I know my traditional students appreciate what I do for them, but they don't know how to express that, or even that they should.
I don't know what conferences are like in other professions, but often times as a teacher, I find myself at a workshop and feeling overwhelmed and bombarded with information. I structured this course to give teachers hands-on time to play with the apps I've introduced and create a lesson/project/unit that they can bring back to their classroom and implement. I strongly believe this is one of the reasons people are happy with this course.
That being said, I had to work pretty hard yesterday to prevent one woman's frustration from bringing me and the entire group down. We broke for lunch and it was all I could do to keep from obsessing over this one individual's issues and inability to think outside the box. But by the time the afternoon session ended, she had an amazing project and some great ideas.
After the day was over, we reconvened at a friend's house who happens to be taking the course. We had munchies and wine and spent three hours talking about kids and technology, Anthony Weiner and diet. It was incredible. Even though we had an hour for lunch (a completely foreign concept to teachers), that time at the end of the day, outside of our work space, allowed us to connect in a completely different way. And laugh a lot.
Sometimes it take a little shift to change your perspective to make things a little clearer.
What's my point in this story? Here's what I learned yesterday.
1-Always remember that you can't please everyone. If you find yourself in a situation where someone seems unhappy (and you feel like you're the cause), talk to them. If that doesn't work, the person's a freak. No, just kidding. Really though, after a conversation, there's not much else you can do, so let it go and move on.
2-Fuck it. I've spent so much time lately in my head, wishing things were different. I've come up with a mental plan to change the things I can control, but I haven't implemented it yet. Done. Over. If I don't pony up and do what I don't want to do, things aren't going to change and then I'm just going to be pissed that once again I've let myself down. No more, can't do it. Bring it on, life.
3-Green smoothies are my life-saver. Not like I didn't know this already, but hearing other women talk about their digestive issues made me so grateful that I don't have any of those problems anymore. I'm regular and happy. And smaller. Two people whom I haven't seen in a while, and a third whom I've met once, all said I've lost weight. Go green.
4-Change things up. Go do something different. Professionally, take a day off and explore something work-related that you've always wanted to know. Take a workshop, and give yourself time afterwards to implement your new learning. Personally, try something new. A cooking class, music lessons, a different workout routine. Keep your brain active.
5-Put yourself first. You'd think that as a Leo I'd be awesome at that. But I usually put others before me and in the end, I'm the one that suffers.
6-Be a bad-ass. The Indie Chicks are so incredibly inspirational, and have helped me dig out my inner bad-ass. Follow them, love them.